urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi PattiO PattiO 2005-02-05T02:12:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:16041 2005-02-05T02:12:51Z 2005-02-05T02:12:51Z " You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone."<br />i couldn't have said it any better urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:14252 2004-10-12T23:39:23Z 2004-10-12T23:39:23Z the shins~new slang can someone please help me!!! im losing my mind!!! i am not sure whether or not to play basketball. i hate it. i hate it with a passion. the coach always makes me feel like crap and i get very depressed during basketball season. i hate! but im scared that if i don't play ill have nothing to do after school. ill sit home bored out of my mind like i am now and just sit like a lump and become lazy. so i have no idea what to do!! i know if i play bball ill regret playing it and if i don't play than ill regret not playing so whatever i do its a no win sitaution. but i can't decide on my own i thinking about quiting since 10th grade but i never did cause im to scared. i told my mom my sitaution and she said all i need is confidence, it sounds easier than it really is how the fuck do i get confidence do i just wake up one morning and have it no ill very be confident cause im a shy mother fucker and i hate it!! i hate being shy i miss so many opoprtinties cause im to scared im a fuckin senior and im to scared to order my own food when i got out to eat what is wrong me!!!!! grrr sometimes i just really hate myself, i always make a big deal out of everything but i can't help. i wrote a journal response in the begining of the school year like around aug. saying how this year im not gunna care about what other people think but its only been one month and i already fucked that up so i guess im just a helpless cause no one can fix me and i can't fix myself. <br />if anyone has any input about the bball tell me cause i don't know what to do urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:14032 2004-08-23T14:23:36Z 2004-08-23T14:23:36Z hey its 10:23 and im at work bored out of my mind!!! thank god this is my last week of weeking three days a week soon ill be working only one day!! oo and i don't want to go back to school!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:13127 2004-08-13T03:02:45Z 2004-08-13T03:02:45Z hey lets review this summer<br /> -the worst summer for family<br /> as if finding out that my mom was in the hositpol the firts wasn't bad enough, she went back into the hositpol today so pray for her cause i will be<br /> -not the best summer for love<br /> but then again is it ever :/<br /> - best summer for money<br /> well i just like to say thank you donna for getting me a job cause havin money is soo much better than not having money lol<br /> -the best summer for friends<br /> this summer was the most active summer i've going out like ever day lol and i love it and i;ve grown closer to my best friends and meet so many new people which i love to meet new people even tho im shy its nice to talk to new people lol<br /><br />ok so this summer wasn't the worst but it wasn't the best, overall its been ok but the fact that i have to back to school soon is killing i hate macarthur soo much i can't wait to go to college!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:12687 2004-05-16T03:10:18Z 2004-05-16T03:10:18Z modest mouse~float on holy crap i feel so bad.... my F'in arm is all bruised up and its killing me i have no idea why it hurts i can't even lift it grrr its taking me soo long to type cause im typing with one hand lol <br />well another than that yesterday was soo much fun happy birthday jenna <br />today i did absoltuly nothing cause i was soo damn tired lol and plus no one was home but oo well urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:12483 2004-05-11T13:00:28Z 2004-05-11T13:00:28Z typing hey its second pd and im in the libaray it will prolly be a while till i write or even go online because my computer is broken so yea bye post some cooments for me for when i get back on lololol bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:12093 2004-05-01T19:54:30Z 2004-05-01T19:54:30Z phamton planet~big brat 1. Go into your LJ's archives.<br />2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).<br />3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).<br />4. Post the text of the sentence <br />"Tomorrow i am going to six flags!!!" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:11929 2004-04-25T18:15:17Z 2004-04-25T18:15:17Z unfair.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:11111 2004-03-30T22:29:52Z 2004-03-30T22:29:52Z Last Week~Video Before you read this remember i can't spell so if i spell something wrong screw you lol <br />[EMO]<br /><br />What makes you sigh?<br /> um orlando bloom lol <br />How many hours a day, on average, do you spend feeling sorry for yourself? <br /> a lot im patheic <br /><br />Who or what always brings you down? <br /> not being loved<br /><br />Do you wear glasses? <br /> nope <br /><br />What frightens you? <br /> spiders,creepy crawly things and blood <br /><br />How many times has your heart been broken? <br /> once unfortunitly<br /> <br />What do you think of Dashboard Confessional?<br /> nah they depress me more then i am already <br />[PUNK]<br /><br />Tell me about that time you broke that law: <br /> you don't want to know<br /><br />What or who pisses you off? <br /> everything <br /><br />Sex or drugs or breaking stuff? <br /> not drugs i play basketball and i suck as it is and doing drugs would make me worse<br /><br />The Clash or The Ramones? <br /> London calling!!!! clash lol but the Ramones are good too<br /><br />Do you do things that are "bad for your body"? <br /> whats that mean like drugs, then no <br />[GOTH]<br /><br />Do you want to die?<br /> yes<br /><br />What do you think about graveyards? <br /> im scared of them what can i say im a wimp lol<br /><br />Do you write poetry often? <br /> somethings i like painting more<br /><br />How much black clothing do you own?<br /> um a good amount b/c black is slimming lol <br /><br />What type of makeup do you wear? <br /> i wear make up, um all types lol <br /><br />What do you think about pain? <br /> remember im a wimp, i hate it<br /><br />Masochism or sadism? <br /> um ya (im also stupid lol)<br /><br />How do you feel about the rest of the world? <br /> it suxs <br /><br />Do you cry often? <br /> cry myself to sleep<br /><br />What do you think about vampires? <br /> i love vampire movies cause they can fly lol<br /><br />How messy are you in general? <br /> im not messy im just to lazy <br /><br />When did you start drinking alchohol? <br /> can't remember<br /><br />Do you go to concerts often? <br /> once in a while when a band i like is in town <br /><br />What bands rock your pants off? <br /> a lot buy lately i really started to like Last week (ya donna lol)<br /><br />Worship Satan or practice black magic?<br /> nope<br /><br />How wild are you in general? <br /> in public im shy but with my friends i can be wild <br />[INDIE]<br /><br />What makes you different from the rest of them?<br /> um i don't know<br /><br />Who or what makes you bitter? <br /> looking at people in love when im not<br /><br />What was the last big decision you made? <br /> i don't remember<br /><br />Are you a happy-go-lucky type of person? <br /> sometimes <br /><br />How hard do you work to get what you want? <br /> it depends what it is if its something big than pretty hard but if its something i know im not going to get then why try<br /><br />What do you resent? <br /> people who have someone to talk to where they can say anything and not feel judged<br /><br />Why might some people consider you to be an asshole? <br /> who said i was an asshole ill kill them lol <br /><br />Do you trust others?<br /> depends<br /><br />Are you a loyal friend?<br /> i think so <br />[RAP]. <br /><br />Do you live in the ghetto?<br /> the l-town ghetto<br /><br />.Have you ever even held a gun before? <br /> nope and don't plan too<br /><br />How much bling do you own? <br /> not much i be poor<br /><br />Ever been to prison? <br /> nope<br />[POP]<br /><br />Who or what makes you so excited you piss your pants? <br /> a lot of things i get excited over every little thing <br /><br />How much money do you spend on bad music? <br /> way too much<br /><br />Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter? <br /> neither! ew <br /><br />Do you like mainstream music? <br /> sometimes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:10916 2004-03-29T00:48:33Z 2004-03-29T00:48:33Z Last week~~girl from long island expections run high in times like these but quickly fall flat <br />i expected you do be better than them but realized you were just like them urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:10585 2004-03-27T04:17:18Z 2004-03-27T04:17:18Z john lennon~Imagine when i start to feel excepted and important i start to realize that i am nothing to everyone and no one really cares about me <br />forget me like you always do urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:10210 2004-03-17T22:13:00Z 2004-03-17T22:13:00Z Gavin Degraw~ i don't want to be HAPPY ST. PATIRCKS DAY!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:9742 2004-03-07T19:25:14Z 2004-03-07T19:31:03Z katy rose~overdrive today is such i nice day. i wanna go outside and set up my badminton net and play but one my brothers are gone and my dad sucks causes hes too old lol two i just looked at the weather and its suspose to snow/rain tomorrow which is so weird b/c its soo warm today and three my backyard is all muddy and ya know me im an intense badminaton player and i like to dive for the birdy lol <br />yesterday i want to friendlys with my friends lol its was jenna bb sam grace and me. we got icecream which i've been craving for a while lol and it was good except my friends torurted bb and me by getting choclate lol its was fun <br />maureen is coming home form England today yay! i haven't seen her in forever<br />well i gotta go do my drivers ed hw <br />does anyone know why gas costs ninth of a cent? lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:9271 2004-03-02T00:46:41Z 2004-03-02T00:46:41Z Beach boy~wouldn't it be nice ok i watched 50 firsts dates and i thought it was such a cute movie. like a guy would really do that ya right lol well i have the song they sing a lot in my head and i asked people if they knew the words but no did lol so heres to tell whose who ever wanted to know the words to the beach boys song "wouldn't it be nice" lol <br /><br /> " Wouldn't it be nice if we were older<br /> Then we wouldn't have to wait so long<br /> And wouldn't it be nice to live together<br /> In the kind of world where we belong<br /><br /> You know its gonna make it that much better<br /> When we can say goodnight and stay together<br /><br /> Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up<br /> In the morning when the day is new<br /> And after having spent the day together<br /> Hold each other close the whole night through<br /><br /> Happy times together we've been spending<br /> I wish that every kiss was neverending<br /> Wouldn't it be nice<br /><br /> Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true<br /> Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do<br /> We could be married<br /> And then we'd be happy<br /><br /> Wouldn't it be nice<br /><br /> You know it seems the more we talk about it<br /> It only makes it worse to live without it<br /> But lets talk about it<br /> Wouldn't it be nice<br /><br /> Good night my baby<br /> Sleep tight my baby" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:8710 2004-02-14T03:36:53Z 2004-02-14T03:36:53Z evanescense~my immortal no luck finding my wallet i guess i have to accpect the fact thats its gone for good i realize i hate my school and i really hate people who steal how would they like it if i stole from them i still don't know when my wallet was lost or stolen but someone have had to pick it up and took it because i went to the main office three times today and everytime they said no and they gave me attitude those fuckin bitchs i can't find my wallet im pissed off and they give me attitude what the hell well i guess i have to go shopping for a new wallet and on tuesday my moms taking me to dmv to get a new permit b/c i need it from drivers ed. the 23rd also on thursday im getting hy hair cut i can't wait b/c i need achange and i need something to help me get over my wallet<br />and on weds is the lady generals 1st playoff game everyone its at island trees at 4 ok everyone go support us!!!!!!<br />im gunna go to bed and dream of a better day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:8309 2004-01-29T18:08:33Z 2004-01-29T18:08:33Z Phantom planet~making a killing <a href="http://www.stanford.edu/~atd10/quizes/fgquiz.html"><img border="0" src="http://www.stanford.edu/~atd10/quizes/peter.jpg"></a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://www.stanford.edu/~atd10/quizes/fgquiz.html">Which Family Guy character are you?</a><br /><br />lol i love family guy <br />im one day closer to being 17 lol <br />chem was pretty easy i think math is going to be the hardest test for me cause i suck at math and i hate it lol grillo is a bad teacher lol <br />two days in a row writing in my journal not bad right lol</font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:8059 2004-01-29T02:34:16Z 2004-01-29T02:34:16Z the darkness~i believe in the thing called love hey like my livejournal? sexy right? lol mwah!<br />thanks bb lol <br />so guess what? my birthday is coming up in like two weeks or three lol im not .well tomorrow is donnas birthday so happy birthday donna and fridays her party its gunna be fun lol (cause ill be there) lol <br />what should i do for my birthday lol go see a rated r movie lol no because my friends wouldn't be able to go cause they will still be 16 haha lol well any suggestions??<br />junior prom is in like three months feb, march , april ypu three months and i saw my dream dress lol its black and soo hott! lol i don't want a black dress cause its in the spring but this dress is absolutly gorguous so o well lol <br />im suspose to be studying for chem but what the hell i kno that shit so ill do good who cares lol <br />to all of those who told me to write in my journal you happy? <br />oo like my lemon lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:7699 2003-10-13T18:04:56Z 2003-10-13T18:04:56Z ~sugarcult~ woah its been like a month since the last time i wrote lol feels longer everything changed lol <br />i think its time to change my journal lol BB wanna help me? lol<br />tomorrow is 80s day in school for spirit week and i really wanna crimp my hair but no one has a crimper so last night i braided my whole head when my hair was wet and i took the braids out this morning and omg lol my hair is one giant frizz ball lol i don't think im gunna wear my hair to school like this tomorrow cause my hair is soo big lol <br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/ghettokitty/1047299736_entrancing.jpg" border="0" alt="entrancing"><br>You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves<br>your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling<br>he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss<br>that never lessens and always blows your<br>partner away like the first time.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/ghettokitty/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20kiss%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What kind of kiss are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br />the people in this picture are really creepy lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:7524 2003-08-26T22:13:28Z 2003-08-26T22:13:28Z I want to hold your hand~ the beatles hello people lol its been a while since i've been online lol see during the summer i was always on my brother chris's computer b/c its a hell of a lot faster and now that chris went back to college on sun. and my computer hasn't worked since the blackout and my other brother mike didn't have aol on his computer i haven't been able to go on. but recently i got one of those aol cds so mikes compuet now has aol thanks to me lol the only problem is that his computer is like 10 years old and is slow as hell lol it took me about a half an hour just to type this much lol <br />I don't wanna go back to school!!!!! NOOOO!!!!! to hell with school!!! the only good thing is that i get to see my speical man lol ooo hes so hott!!! yum! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:7242 2003-08-10T04:52:13Z 2003-08-10T04:52:13Z Watchin Snl hello im bored like always so i took some quizes <br /><br /><a href="http://www.lteonga.com/selector.html"><img border="0" src="http://www.lteonga.com/idbemush.jpg"></a><br><font size="2"><a href="http://www.lteonga.com/selector.html">Which <i>Newsies</i> Character Is Most Like You?</a><br> Find out at <a href="http://www.lteonga.com"><b>Newsies Meets Anime...Anime Meets Newsies...</a></b><br><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/F/fireyprincess4u/1059431198_elledisney.jpg" border="0" alt="Belle"><br>You are Belle from Beauty and the Beast!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/fireyprincess4u/quizzes/What%20Disney%20Princess%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Disney Princess are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/acidtongue/1036825926_uizcostume.gif" border="0" alt="costume"><br>roleplay<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/acidtongue/quizzes/What&#39;s%20YOUR%20sexual%20fetish%3F/"> <font size="-1">What's YOUR sexual fetish?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:7076 2003-08-08T02:31:30Z 2003-08-08T02:31:30Z <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/Stingraycer9/1059441491_resMartini.jpg" border="0" alt="Sophisticated and classy, you take shitty-tasting liquid and make it look beautiful and glamorous!!"><br>Congratulations!! You're a smart sophisticated and<br>beautiful martini!!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Stingraycer9/quizzes/What%20Drink%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Drink Are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:6868 2003-08-06T04:03:12Z 2003-08-07T01:56:24Z Sorry ~~Nerf Herder <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1033837099_drummer.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>you're the drummer!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/emilysguitar/quizzes/what%20band%20member%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">what band member are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1033715918_fulOrlando.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br>Playful Orlando<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/orliwhore/quizzes/What%20Orlando%20Bloom%20are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Orlando Bloom are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/M/MorbidMagdalena/1051679203_vaicecream.jpg" border="0" alt="vaicecream"><br>You are Vanilla!<br />You appear plain, and boring to the naked eye. But<br>once you open up, *BAM* You're spunky and fun.<br>You can get along with anyone and everyone!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/MorbidMagdalena/quizzes/What%20Flavor%20Ice%20Cream%20are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Flavor Ice Cream are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br />I love vanilla!!! <br />I went t a yankee game today it was awsome!!!! yankees kick ass!! Jeter had two homeruns hes soo hot Yankees won 2-6 yay!! good day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:6402 2003-07-29T23:59:48Z 2003-07-30T00:07:50Z ~shes a maniac~ <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/carebear2k2/1057191863_znatMurphy.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x86e3bf8)"><br>You are: Murphy MacManus! Is that right Rambo??<br>Congratulations!<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/carebear2k2/quizzes/What%20Boondock%20Saints%20Character%20are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Boondock Saints Character are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><br />AWW what a cutie!! EVEryone who reads this (lol not many) go see the boondock saints I am making you see it now!!!!! <br />Tomorrow i am going to six flags!!! i can't wait but im scared lol i hope i come back alive!<br />Wanna hear something interesting Patricia is the #2 most common female name. thats weird i don't really like my name there is some strange news Patricia is the #1192 most common male name.0.004% of men in the US are named Patricia.Around 4900 US men are named Patricia. i bet they are all gay lol who would name their son patricia!! it boogles the mind<br />Reilly is the #901 most common last name.0.013% of last names in the US are Reilly.Around 32500 US last names are Reilly! namestatistics.com urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:6194 2003-07-13T21:52:14Z 2003-07-13T21:52:14Z ~Never look back~Ten foot pole <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/sugarfish7/1051659257_stspideymj.jpg" border="0" alt="Spiderman and Mary Jane"><br>Spiderman + Mary Jane<br />You're the onscreen kiss from Spiderman!<br />Random guys turn you on? That's kinda creepy. You<br>don't mind pulling a guy off the street and<br>batting your eyelashes at him, as long as you<br>can get the thrill out of it.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/sugarfish7/quizzes/Which%20Onscreen%20Kiss%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">Which Onscreen Kiss Are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1034278098_tionbehind.jpg" border="0" alt="hug from behind"><br>hug from behind - you like to feel what the other<br>person is feeling and see things how they see<br>them. you tend to be serious and emotional.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/theandrea/quizzes/What%20Sign%20of%20Affection%20Are%20You%3F/"> <font size="-1">What Sign of Affection Are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:risi:5957 2003-07-05T04:25:22Z 2003-07-05T04:25:22Z Vacation~~Go-Go's im so excited!! im going on vacation in about 4 hours!!! North Carolina roxs!! Go Nags head! lol <br />im still very very burned but who cares i am going on vacation lol if i went on vacation with just my family i would kill myself luckily and aunt, uncle and my two cousin are going and my best friend jill is coming to so don't worry i won't go insane <br />Happy 4th everyone fireworks are pretty lol my dog Momo was so scared of them lol it was cute im going to miss him unfortunately he can't come but he will be staying with my mommy im going to miss my mommy too (more than momo lol) Sorry i have to go eat im starving Soo i'll be back July 12th buhbye!