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" You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone."
i couldn't have said it any better
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[12 Oct 2004|07:29pm] |
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can someone please help me!!! im losing my mind!!! i am not sure whether or not to play basketball. i hate it. i hate it with a passion. the coach always makes me feel like crap and i get very depressed during basketball season. i hate! but im scared that if i don't play ill have nothing to do after school. ill sit home bored out of my mind like i am now and just sit like a lump and become lazy. so i have no idea what to do!! i know if i play bball ill regret playing it and if i don't play than ill regret not playing so whatever i do its a no win sitaution. but i can't decide on my own i thinking about quiting since 10th grade but i never did cause im to scared. i told my mom my sitaution and she said all i need is confidence, it sounds easier than it really is how the fuck do i get confidence do i just wake up one morning and have it no ill very be confident cause im a shy mother fucker and i hate it!! i hate being shy i miss so many opoprtinties cause im to scared im a fuckin senior and im to scared to order my own food when i got out to eat what is wrong me!!!!! grrr sometimes i just really hate myself, i always make a big deal out of everything but i can't help. i wrote a journal response in the begining of the school year like around aug. saying how this year im not gunna care about what other people think but its only been one month and i already fucked that up so i guess im just a helpless cause no one can fix me and i can't fix myself.
if anyone has any input about the bball tell me cause i don't know what to do
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[23 Aug 2004|10:23am] |
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hey its 10:23 and im at work bored out of my mind!!! thank god this is my last week of weeking three days a week soon ill be working only one day!! oo and i don't want to go back to school!!!!
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[12 Aug 2004|10:55pm] |
hey lets review this summer
-the worst summer for family
as if finding out that my mom was in the hositpol the firts wasn't bad enough, she went back into the hositpol today so pray for her cause i will be
-not the best summer for love
but then again is it ever :/
- best summer for money
well i just like to say thank you donna for getting me a job cause havin money is soo much better than not having money lol
-the best summer for friends
this summer was the most active summer i've going out like ever day lol and i love it and i;ve grown closer to my best friends and meet so many new people which i love to meet new people even tho im shy its nice to talk to new people lol
ok so this summer wasn't the worst but it wasn't the best, overall its been ok but the fact that i have to back to school soon is killing i hate macarthur soo much i can't wait to go to college!!
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[15 May 2004|11:20pm] |
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holy crap i feel so bad.... my F'in arm is all bruised up and its killing me i have no idea why it hurts i can't even lift it grrr its taking me soo long to type cause im typing with one hand lol
well another than that yesterday was soo much fun happy birthday jenna
today i did absoltuly nothing cause i was soo damn tired lol and plus no one was home but oo well
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[11 May 2004|08:57am] |
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hey its second pd and im in the libaray it will prolly be a while till i write or even go online because my computer is broken so yea bye post some cooments for me for when i get back on lololol bye
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| took this thingy from donna |
[01 May 2004|03:48pm] |
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1. Go into your LJ's archives.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence
"Tomorrow i am going to six flags!!!"
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[25 Apr 2004|02:15pm] |
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unfair....
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[30 Mar 2004|05:08pm] |
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Before you read this remember i can't spell so if i spell something wrong screw you lol
[EMO]
What makes you sigh?
um orlando bloom lol
How many hours a day, on average, do you spend feeling sorry for yourself?
a lot im patheic
Who or what always brings you down?
not being loved
Do you wear glasses?
nope
What frightens you?
spiders,creepy crawly things and blood
How many times has your heart been broken?
once unfortunitly
What do you think of Dashboard Confessional?
nah they depress me more then i am already
[PUNK]
Tell me about that time you broke that law:
you don't want to know
What or who pisses you off?
everything
Sex or drugs or breaking stuff?
not drugs i play basketball and i suck as it is and doing drugs would make me worse
The Clash or The Ramones?
London calling!!!! clash lol but the Ramones are good too
Do you do things that are "bad for your body"?
whats that mean like drugs, then no
[GOTH]
Do you want to die?
yes
What do you think about graveyards?
im scared of them what can i say im a wimp lol
Do you write poetry often?
somethings i like painting more
How much black clothing do you own?
um a good amount b/c black is slimming lol
What type of makeup do you wear?
i wear make up, um all types lol
What do you think about pain?
remember im a wimp, i hate it
Masochism or sadism?
um ya (im also stupid lol)
How do you feel about the rest of the world?
it suxs
Do you cry often?
cry myself to sleep
What do you think about vampires?
i love vampire movies cause they can fly lol
How messy are you in general?
im not messy im just to lazy
When did you start drinking alchohol?
can't remember
Do you go to concerts often?
once in a while when a band i like is in town
What bands rock your pants off?
a lot buy lately i really started to like Last week (ya donna lol)
Worship Satan or practice black magic?
nope
How wild are you in general?
in public im shy but with my friends i can be wild
[INDIE]
What makes you different from the rest of them?
um i don't know
Who or what makes you bitter?
looking at people in love when im not
What was the last big decision you made?
i don't remember
Are you a happy-go-lucky type of person?
sometimes
How hard do you work to get what you want?
it depends what it is if its something big than pretty hard but if its something i know im not going to get then why try
What do you resent?
people who have someone to talk to where they can say anything and not feel judged
Why might some people consider you to be an asshole?
who said i was an asshole ill kill them lol
Do you trust others?
depends
Are you a loyal friend?
i think so
[RAP].
Do you live in the ghetto?
the l-town ghetto
.Have you ever even held a gun before?
nope and don't plan too
How much bling do you own?
not much i be poor
Ever been to prison?
nope
[POP]
Who or what makes you so excited you piss your pants?
a lot of things i get excited over every little thing
How much money do you spend on bad music?
way too much
Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter?
neither! ew
Do you like mainstream music?
sometimes
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[28 Mar 2004|07:43pm] |
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Last week~~girl from long island |
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expections run high in times like these but quickly fall flat
i expected you do be better than them but realized you were just like them
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[26 Mar 2004|11:14pm] |
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when i start to feel excepted and important i start to realize that i am nothing to everyone and no one really cares about me
forget me like you always do
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[17 Mar 2004|05:10pm] |
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HAPPY ST. PATIRCKS DAY!!!!!!!
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[07 Mar 2004|02:16pm] |
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today is such i nice day. i wanna go outside and set up my badminton net and play but one my brothers are gone and my dad sucks causes hes too old lol two i just looked at the weather and its suspose to snow/rain tomorrow which is so weird b/c its soo warm today and three my backyard is all muddy and ya know me im an intense badminaton player and i like to dive for the birdy lol
yesterday i want to friendlys with my friends lol its was jenna bb sam grace and me. we got icecream which i've been craving for a while lol and it was good except my friends torurted bb and me by getting choclate lol its was fun
maureen is coming home form England today yay! i haven't seen her in forever
well i gotta go do my drivers ed hw
does anyone know why gas costs ninth of a cent? lol
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[01 Mar 2004|07:40pm] |
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ok i watched 50 firsts dates and i thought it was such a cute movie. like a guy would really do that ya right lol well i have the song they sing a lot in my head and i asked people if they knew the words but no did lol so heres to tell whose who ever wanted to know the words to the beach boys song "wouldn't it be nice" lol
" Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby"
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[13 Feb 2004|10:27pm] |
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no luck finding my wallet i guess i have to accpect the fact thats its gone for good i realize i hate my school and i really hate people who steal how would they like it if i stole from them i still don't know when my wallet was lost or stolen but someone have had to pick it up and took it because i went to the main office three times today and everytime they said no and they gave me attitude those fuckin bitchs i can't find my wallet im pissed off and they give me attitude what the hell well i guess i have to go shopping for a new wallet and on tuesday my moms taking me to dmv to get a new permit b/c i need it from drivers ed. the 23rd also on thursday im getting hy hair cut i can't wait b/c i need achange and i need something to help me get over my wallet
and on weds is the lady generals 1st playoff game everyone its at island trees at 4 ok everyone go support us!!!!!!
im gunna go to bed and dream of a better day
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[29 Jan 2004|01:05pm] |
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Which Family Guy character are you?
lol i love family guy
im one day closer to being 17 lol
chem was pretty easy i think math is going to be the hardest test for me cause i suck at math and i hate it lol grillo is a bad teacher lol
two days in a row writing in my journal not bad right lol
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[28 Jan 2004|09:26pm] |
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hey like my livejournal? sexy right? lol mwah!
thanks bb lol
so guess what? my birthday is coming up in like two weeks or three lol im not .well tomorrow is donnas birthday so happy birthday donna and fridays her party its gunna be fun lol (cause ill be there) lol
what should i do for my birthday lol go see a rated r movie lol no because my friends wouldn't be able to go cause they will still be 16 haha lol well any suggestions??
junior prom is in like three months feb, march , april ypu three months and i saw my dream dress lol its black and soo hott! lol i don't want a black dress cause its in the spring but this dress is absolutly gorguous so o well lol
im suspose to be studying for chem but what the hell i kno that shit so ill do good who cares lol
to all of those who told me to write in my journal you happy?
oo like my lemon lol
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[13 Oct 2003|01:56pm] |
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woah its been like a month since the last time i wrote lol feels longer everything changed lol
i think its time to change my journal lol BB wanna help me? lol
tomorrow is 80s day in school for spirit week and i really wanna crimp my hair but no one has a crimper so last night i braided my whole head when my hair was wet and i took the braids out this morning and omg lol my hair is one giant frizz ball lol i don't think im gunna wear my hair to school like this tomorrow cause my hair is soo big lol
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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the people in this picture are really creepy lol
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[26 Aug 2003|06:09pm] |
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hello people lol its been a while since i've been online lol see during the summer i was always on my brother chris's computer b/c its a hell of a lot faster and now that chris went back to college on sun. and my computer hasn't worked since the blackout and my other brother mike didn't have aol on his computer i haven't been able to go on. but recently i got one of those aol cds so mikes compuet now has aol thanks to me lol the only problem is that his computer is like 10 years old and is slow as hell lol it took me about a half an hour just to type this much lol
I don't wanna go back to school!!!!! NOOOO!!!!! to hell with school!!! the only good thing is that i get to see my speical man lol ooo hes so hott!!! yum!
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